FML. I LEARN MY LESSONS. Thank you!

WHEN YOU READ THIS I KNOW YOU WILL SAY COMPARE TO OTHERS PEOPLE THIS IS JUST NOTHING. TO ME THIS HURT ME LIKE MAD CAUSE ONCE I BELIEVE AND ALL I GET IS LIES AND HURT! 

SILENCE DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M WEAK! IT BECAUSE  AFRAID TO GET HURT!

I CHANGE BECAUSE OF THE SHIT HAPPEN.  THANKS FOR MAKING IT HAPPEN. 

STOP ASKING ME TO BE THE OLD SELF AGAIN. 

THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN I WILL ONLY CHANGE MYSELF. 

I LOVE YOU ONCE AND I WILL NEVER LOVE YOU AGAIN . 

I WON'T BE SO STUPID AGAIN! 

I did the most stupid things in my life I go confess to the guy I like and what I get is the biggest truth he actually use me to test his own feeling towards another person.  Wtf. 

So  1 week seems nothing cause we did nothing together . Yes NOTHING!

I should have let go since nothing happen but it's hard for me to let go cause I fall for it unknownly and he did warn  me not to fall as things might turn out to be hurting myself. 

FUCK YOU! WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT?? 3 WEEKS LATER. MY NIGHTMARE FINALLY CAME 

They two started a week after us and I know it 3 weeks later! I'm hurt by all the things you two did what's more I just like a puppet toys both of your play till really happy. I still believe what you two say stupid me. Cb max.

You fall for someone older then you by 10+ years old. Push me away cause I'm younger then you by 2 years old.
 姐弟恋 now popular but you start it first way before the show DOTS . WELL DONE I CLAP FOR YOU! 

Just to remind you this . DON'T LIKE ME FUCK OFF. Why must you give me this chance to prove that you actually like someone else. Make fun of me? Hello you heartless I'm not. You never wish to say out your feeling all I do I guess! Let me tell you not fun at all to guess your fucking feeling  

Jealous kills me!! 

IT'S HARD FOR ME TO ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN. I KNOW YOU CAN BUT I CAN'T CAUSE I USE MY HEART TO LIKE YOU AND YOU USE JUST USING ME. SEEING YOU AND HER ALL DAY HELP HER DO THINGS  SO SWEET MAKES ME WANNA KILL MYSELF AND EVEN SLAP BOTH OF YOU. CAUSE I'M JEALOUS! 

IF I CAN I WANNA GIVE YOU ONE TIGH SLAP FOR USING ME. I THINK ONE NOT ENOUGH NEED MORE OF IT BUT I DON'T WISH TO DIRTY MY HAND. 

This is what you did when you are with her.

'Do all nice things to her wanting to make everyone know you and her together. Buy her breakfast refill water for her help her take things send her home ever day! 

What you did to me is. 

'Say I'm stubborn and ask me to shut up not to tell anyone about us don't be to close to you' wtf 

THANKS FOR THE THINGS YOU DONE TO MAKE ME HATE YOU! 

She keep on tell you my good helping me cause I did wish to have a chance to start with you. You got mad and make me loss face in front of your own brother and his gf  thank you. 

I wanna talk  to you outside your answer is no. Talk in office. You wanna let everyone know is it? Ha. I'm not stupid, i message that girl and tell her about it so  she ask you to talk to me you say ok can. 

We had a talk that night. We are just colleague not friend cause you say if we be friends I will never let go and will suffer.

 And you ask why  i keep on notice what you and her are doing. I should never tell her anything even my feel. 

 That night I told her angrily. FROM NOW ON  I WON'T TALK TO HIM ANYMORE. 

Hello its my freedom to say and her choice to tell you. She did ask me about my feeling, she understand how I feel I got no choice to tell her but  I never force her to say out. She feel bad and sad for everything cause she care for me! 

And you? Ha! 

Well. Please fuck off  you never care cause you are selfish you only care about her and yourself. 

After all the  words you say to me hurt me and  she apologise behalf of you. Wtf!

I don't know why I will still care for you this idiot. You are nothing at all you never even care my feel you are in your world and think for your own. I don't know what makes me like you. I think I'm mad! 

Fucker. Your words hurt your action also hurts. You want me to hate you OK i will hate you. Since we never talk anymore we are more like stranger then colleague so I will never forgive you at all.  Let me tell you I got my karma on hurting someone last time now I got it from you.. Soon you will get yours for hurting me.

All the apologise are too late. Shut up please I don't want to hear it anymore.  

My heart is being stabbed by a sharp knife from him and he did it twice. Once for using me once is telling me his fucking true feeling. And the slice it out piece by piece cause both of you together and make me feel uneasy upon seeing you two. And all the words from both of you.

You know what. I'm the one bleeding yet you actually act like you were the one that's bleeding  as well. Oh my God.  Who the hack hurt me over and over again? Please don't act anymore. Wtf.  I know you care for me but do you know that your care is like rubbing salt on my wound!

I won't hold on to this matter anymore I will let go and hate you since this is what you want. 

ANYWAY,

I'm the one suffer now. I don't know what makes me like you cause you are just nothing at all. All things you did is just to be friendly and it's fake. 

I'm just stupid and thank you very much your words and action make me understand everything.

I WON'T HOLD ON ANYMORE I WILL JUST LET GO OF IT TOTALLY CAUSE NO POINT AT ALL. 

I'M STUPID TO HOLD ON AT THE FIRST PLACE!WTF!

 I WON'T ANYMORE

 I WILL BE HEARTLESS TOWARD EVERYTHING I WON'T TALK TO YOU ANYMORE NOT EVEN ABOUT WORKING STUFF.CAUSED YOU WONT BOTHER TO ASK ME!

YOU MAKE THIS HAPPEN BARE FOR IT!

I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR YOU ARE JUST NOTHING TO ME! 

THANK YOU! &  FUCK YOU! 

I LEARN THIS BIG LESSON FROM THIS MATTER! 

"被爱是幸福的，爱人是痛苦的"

BEING LOVE IS BLESSED. LOVE SOMEONE IS PAINFUL.  

I WILL LET THE ONE TO LOVE ME THEN HURTING MYSELF.

2016. good year ? bad year ?

The start of 2016 I'm so tired.. super sian.. 

second and third day unlucky things happen. A fat boy play Scotter at toy r us and.... he Kuai on my toes ( scoot and go over my toes) boy.. ah boy... you very fat leh my toes never break You very lucky if not you died. 

Third day ezlink card lost. Wtf. I drop at where I also forget. Shit max.

2016 not my year so unlucky. Need go pray already. 

Wanna go overseas also so many problem.

 Wtf.  

Year of monkey

No comment for anything now. Feel super emo..

Just wanna run away from everything.  So restless.  Breathless. So stress. I hate everything right now

 My bff still can tell me it's ok to et a bad start from new year as good things will come after that. I just laugh at it cause I know not so easy... 

Well. 2016 you listen up. You better be a good one start from now I really very tired of it. 

Thank you very very much.  

Chinese new year? Let me skip this can.. ang bao have or not in don't really care at all I just don't wish to put on a mask to show people how good I'm.. im not ok at all.

I wanna shut myself ignore people. 

Stop asking I got boyfriend or not. Stop asking where am I working or work as what. . Or even how old am I this year. 

I just wish to tell them this. Don't kpo shut your mouth up thanks ... my life my problem you don't interfere don't bother unless you are me..  

Why? Wanna intro me a boyfriend if yes ok come intro me one. If not shut up. 

Why? Wanna intro me a super well paid job 2k per month 5 days work 9am to 5pm ? If yes please intro if not shut up.. 

Stop asking me question I never even ask you yet you keep on ask.. 

Just shut up you only see me once a year so don't bother so much.. 

Im seriously getting tired of all things..

Emo shall be the mood for me now till I find my old self back. Don't ask me anything I don't know how to answer. I don't know why either. Im so so so mood less.. 

Shut the fuck up. Please don't ask. I not going answer cause I can't find the answer as well. 

Wtf. Why like th

Blah Blah Blah..

Sick.. Yet still need to work.. Haha. No rest at all.. Well .. Forget it..

I really got sick like from last wednesday.. Slight cough, till now sore throat, cough and slight flu.. wow.. I never even bother to see doctor.

You might be thinking i'm stupid right... Work at clinic see doctor lah, but hey wait a minute... You got to see if the medicine suitable for me or not...

Not i don't want to see is i really don't feel like seeing the doctor in the clinic i working, sorry to say the medicine there don't suit me at all... I rather go to other clinic pay myself and recover fast.. Then eat the medicine that don't work on me and keep dragging forever to recover...

So all i want to do now is study hard and leave that place, i feel like i'm dying at the retro clinic although i learn a lot but hey, i really hate that place.. Seriously hate it..

Alright.. No point keep on repeat on this, i got to hack care and work till i got my cert and run away fromn that place.... That's it..

busy? stress? whatever!

I don't know what i want to do now.... I feel so tried of everything..

Work? HA! That's the worst job i ever have. I really don't like working there reason, I feel that i got lot's of stress given by them. You will say Clinic got what stress ? Ha. You try working there and you will know, Sometime not all clinic is the want we want them to be example all drug/mc key in by doctor and print out we just happily take it and give out. This clinic is like i need to look for cards and then doctor write i type and print, wtf, so old fashion right, i really hope the card got wet and then got white ants eat all the paper card plus got burn away more faster.. I really hate looking for cards!! FML.

Stress about what? Exam! Yes. Gonna take exam next year. Not even know what to study lor.. Why!!!

Work stress , study stress.. FML.. What things not stress?

Ha. Cry also no use at all.. LOLs...

Sometime  i'm thinking why i choose to work at that clinic? SO many place to ask why go ask them, Fuck, I never know they never change at all so old fashion what so retro want.

I feel kinda stupid to work there.. I can go look for office work want leh, but i choose not too.. Why?? If i can choose again i will go work at other place instead of the clinic, fml...


I just want to do well in my exam go to the course i want and then go work at the place i want... rather then stuck at that retro clinic ...... I feel like dying there... Old fashion place. Why can't they really change the style nowadays where got people like that style....

I choose the job i got to face it. wtf. i wonder what my brain thinking when i go ask for job. stupid max.. FML.. m

I want HOLIDAY!!

I really need holiday. I'm so lazy to go work and i wish i'm having holiday right now... I don't feel like working already... HOLIDAY I MISS YOU!!!!

I seriously need to voice out to the lady boss that i wanna work 4 days only from the start of 2015.. I need time to study i not the genius kids who don't need study or just read and will remember it easily.. I'm not the kids who got tuition class.. I'm not student who is secondary school and teachers will give some tips on what to study for upcoming exam.. I'm doing self-study and i take exam as a private candidate, I NEED TO STUDY MY OWN! work for you i got time study ? You happy happy ask me go back to work got time study meh? I not ROBOT who just need to install thumb drive and then all information will just come out .. I'm human i need to study and remember it my own. YES!! MY OWN!!
So if i were to work 6 days for you i think i will become crazy.. Plus i don't have IQ 200!! I also wish i have IQ 200 so whatever i study it will be the most simple things ever.. BUT.. hell no , you don't push me to hard.. I will break down and turn crazy!!!

I got to voice out to you. Oh ya... IF you want to nag at me again i don't think i can hold anymore i will burst out and scold you upside down, you don't push me to hard, especially the doctor aka boss! Lady boss also.
I'm young i know i can learn a lot i know, but you think i interested in it? NO, NOT AT ALL!!! My heart not here, my heart is somewhere else....  I think i will explode very fast if i were to continue to be there, i got nightmare every night when i'm working the next day, HORRIBLE NIGHT MARE YOU KEEP ON NAG AT ME NON-STOP! SLEEP ALSO DON"T LET ME GO! NAG NAG NAG!! FML!!

I'm thankful you teach me how to go on diet in healthy way, and teach me a lot of things.. But when its time for me to leave i will leave.. You don't ever try to drag me back to help you.. I don't like it... I go work one time i feel like i'm dying when i'm there..

IF you reading it i will be really happy at it, cause you won't ask me again and again.. You know every time you nag at me my inner self look like the picture.. And i seriously hate you tell me things all over again and again.. That two picture is how i look every time inside when you talk to me...

I gonna look for other job..


   

Getting tired.

Yes, imma getting tired of the job and i really kinda dislike it.. Seriously, Retro clinic... What a joke..  FML!

I wanna leave the place asap, i really can't take it anymore. Why? Simple. I dislike the method they work.. Especially, The Doctor(Boss) and also lady boss...

Well, lady boss still okay, anything tell her she will look in the matter and then try to change it, Boss. Fuck it. All the retro way, wtf, you think i will like it? NO.. So old fashion for fuck! If you reading it. Yes! I'm saying you...  Why you have a retro brain? GOD! Please don't be so retro already, now is 2014 not the era you are in year 40-60s! I not in the year so please don't drag me in to it, I born in 90s so i don't think i can follow your retro way, kthxbye!呸

Anyway, i already wear 3/4 pants to work, so please zip up your fucking retro mouth and stop nagging.. I already get enough of you. I wear t-shirt nothing wrong okay , a lot of clinic stuff also wear t-shirt.. You retro minded person go and see it yourselves okays. I wonder whats wrong with it.. You want me wear former to work as if im going wedding dinner meh? 2 hours only wear former shirt go you think i mad? I only know you mad!


Sometime i feel so sorry for the stuff who works for you for like years.. Hear all you nagging and scolding non stop and also please don't be a bloody hell idiot okay, we are human we can do wrong work at times as too many things come at once... You jolly well seat in there know what happen outside meh? People complain why not yet he/she turn, keep on ask and ask. You happily seat in there talk slowly be such a long winder person. wtf.呸

oh yes. YMCA.
I ask your teacher about the case that bringing biscuits to school, I just wondering if the kids were lying or what. Sounds so stupid about it, you ask them they say no, haha, who will dare to say yes? Stupid anyway i don't want anymore weird case happening again, SOUND SUPER STUPID !! Kids won't tell you they did it or not cause they scare you scold them, they secretly eat you also don't know right! Okay.

I need help, Where can i get this t-shirts in Singapore ? I really need to get one of it. Can i get in Bugis strees? Or any blogshop/ instagram selling it.. I wanna get one of each.

STFU T-Shirt 

WTF? T-Shirt